Life can sometimes be hard to balance. Work, fun, motherhood, cleaning, friendships, relationships, family… Some days, I just want to throw my arms in the air and scream Eff it all! I have always been such a people-pleaser, all I ever wanted to do was make the people around me as happy as I could. What I didn’t realize in all of this, was while I was nearly killing myself to make others happy, deep down inside – I was not happy, I was miserable. Don’t get me wrong, serving others is very dear to my heart, and understandably, serving without the expectations of receiving is as selfless as one can be – that’s actually what I was striving for. But not being able to serve yourself because you are always serving others is a daunting and exhausting task. Sometimes you need to ask for help and just hope that maybe, it will be given back to you.
I have learned so much this past year. I learned that in the end, sometimes you just have to stand up for yourself. I learned that the only person in charge of your happiness is you. Life is only what you make it to be, and that you shouldn’t or can’t depend on others to make you happy. I learned that Gary Chapman’s “The five love languages” only works when both parties are willing to fill each others love tanks. I learned that life is so fleeting and ever-changing, you never know when something life altering is going to come into play. I learned to be diligent in my goals, knowing that if I didn’t follow the proper steps, I would never reach them. I learned that life can be so beautiful if you take the time to appreciate it. I learned that I was strong enough. And more than that, I learned that I deserved happiness.
I hope you all had a great weekend and my challenge for you this week, is to find YOUR happy.